A South Carolina parole board denied Susan Smith’s release Wednesday, nearly 30 years after she received a life sentence for murdering her 3-year-old and infant sons.

Smith’s voice shook as she spoke to board members over a video call and expressed remorse for the boys’ deaths. She told the parole board that she’s a Christian and asked them to show her “that same kind of mercy, as well.”

David Smith, Susan Smith’s ex-husband and father of the boys she killed, will join Ashleigh Banfield tonight at 10p/9CT. To find out how to watch, visit JoinNN.com.

“I know that what I did was horrible,” she said, wiping her eyes. “And I would give anything if I could go back and change it. I love Michael and Alex with all my heart.”